Thursday, September 15, 2016

I tried to be square for everyone,
holding back all those stream line
stopped for a minute, and see what it gets me.

You broke and crushed me,
but my heart never move
Not once a bit.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

I have made a mistake
I've learned my past

I didn't ask for forgiveness
And i didn't ask for you to stay either

You can either leave
Or you can stop talking about the past

I did not ask you to stay
so you can keep reminding me every bits of it.

Not once in a day i regret of doing it.
And now i have to live it for the rest of my life.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

It's good to know you had 
cleanse off your feelings

But every clean spot was once
a dark spot

You can double check 
so many times you want
those old spot is still there,
right where it left off.

Sunday, June 19, 2016

I thought what we had was real
All those time consuming
All those energy wasted
All those things left

I thought you're different
I thougth we're different

I really thought for once 
This is freaking real

Please make me believe once again
Please say i thought i am wrong

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

And i could write all over it
i wrote and booked you
That's how i felt
about you

But no book will get to you
as you don't own one
And you will always be


Saturday, April 23, 2016

When you feel like he is the one
That is when you felt wrong

When you think about him
You only think the good of him

Sometimes you'll have to lose something
to know if you need them or you want them

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Love yourself more
Why you have to sacrifice everything 
for the sake of someone else

Why change for someone else
Why you endure the pain

Keep it
Don't let go

Monday, March 14, 2016

I let my guard down again
You let him in
You immersed yourself in a hopeless feeling
fake and unreal

Girl, why you never learn
Why you never get tired
Why bother and why you let him

Take some pride and leave

Tuesday, March 01, 2016

Revenge is sweet
but forgiveness ain't one

I want to see you baby
I want to see your face
when i drop the F bomb

Pity you and pity her
Pity me for letting you
take everything for granted

Now i'm pity all men in the world
whom i'm getting hard to trust 
after this
Cos you broke my heart 
That's why.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

You better be sorry and 
you better bet all tears that I shed
was worth while

Sometimes i see you are
no different that the others
No, no you're not

I am the one changing 
and shifting for the better
of you and for the better of us

What make me not leaving you?
What make me stay?



Friday, November 13, 2015

Is it selfish for wanting you?
Is it selfish for wanting you
for myself only


Loving and wanting you very badly 
that make me afraid of losing you 
to some one else

This isn't love


Love don't own
Love don't make it yours


Love only celebrate your existence
I know you're there
You will always be


That is my love for you

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Oh,Death

Well, what is this that I can't see
With ice cold hands taking hold of me
When god is gone and the Devil takes hold
Who will have mercy on my soul?

Oh, Death
Won't you spare me over another year?

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

You should have left
when you still had the chance.
Why bother staying
What remains only broken pieces,
damaged and unwanted.

Nobody should've own
nobody should've hold


Monday, October 26, 2015

Jumping on places
Meeting new people
Getting positive vibes around

When i think you should have that
Why i get the feeling you don't deserve
You're low
I don't want you on the same level with me
What left of both us
Nothing

Saturday, September 12, 2015

You don't get to play the guilty part
over here
You throw me out
You abandoned me out
You let us out

What left of us is nothing
That's is us
No more guilt

Thursday, August 20, 2015

I don't want your rich and fame
All i want is you to be with me
always when in need

Notice me please

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Hi,

I woke up today to realize, i will be leaving you soon.
I woke up every one of each day to realize you're not there.
I sometimes wonder, life fucked me up so hard.
And i sometimes ponder, maybe life will give me light,
but not just now.
I've never felt guilty of liking you and be with you.
It's a feeling i can't control.
What's controlling me is a bunch of people who had enough
of our love.
I have a lot to tell you, but i will tell you soon.
Till then, will you wait for a while.
For Us.


15

Friday, February 27, 2015

I'm not supposed to love you
But i am
i do
and i'm sorry for that

Thursday, February 19, 2015

I felt so annoyed 
I can't even let it be
I can't write it down
wrote it out

Is this depression?

Friday, January 30, 2015

I want you to feel
the same way i feel

i want you to feel
to be unwanted
to be waiting
to be left
clueless
in the middle of the night

EVERY NIGHT

Thursday, November 13, 2014

From today onward,
i won't take it slow
no more.

i am speed
i'll leave anyone
who is not keeping up
with my pace

i'm sick of waiting

Sunday, October 12, 2014

I can assume
I am a very decent kind of people.
But this Judgey Joey,
doesn't think so.

I'm not expecting someone or everyone.
I'm not anyone's first choice.
I'm not anyone's favorite.

They will tell me i mean a lot to them
But i know there's someone
they will always choose
over me.

I'm okay, i'll just wait over here.
Ponder


Friday, October 10, 2014

When i am no longer
upset or mad

I am no longer care

Goodbye You

Thursday, October 02, 2014

Sometimes i listen to songs
before i sleep.
Regretting.
Because the lyrics sing
what i can't and 
afraid to say say
to you

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Stop.
Just stop.
He's not going to text you.
Stop checking your phone.
Silly girl, why did you fall?

You were just a small speck
of his big life.
While he's off to a better things,
and you're alone in the night .

I know it's the sad truth.

How stupid of me to think
to think i was the only flower
in your garden.

Monday, September 15, 2014

The most twisted logic 
i can put up to --
i told you 
to never text me again
and then the phone rings
and i hope its you

If only you can see
my face lights up
when your name
appear on my phone

And my kind of 3AM
right now  --
the time of night for crying,
wall staring,
and longing for love


Thursday, September 04, 2014

I am that kind of girl

that still believe in love
believing love at a first sight
believing love sparkling
on the eyes of the beholder

I am that kind of girl

the old-fashioned girl
that still writing a love letter
cheekily watching her crush from far
swoon by the cheesy 
and hopeless romantic gesture

I am that kind of girl

that you're one day
you will remember 
and you already late

cause you already losing me 



Thursday, August 21, 2014

i am a very decent person
humble to the earth
the least young, wild and free
you've met.

And i might lead you to something
different than what you
least expect.

i am truly sorry of that,
i am not that kind of person
i still remember
the good in people
and i still remember
the grace in woman.

You can enjoy as many times as you want
Apparently, one day
you're gonna miss me.
When there's a rain, 
a rainbow should come up later
to bring joy from sorrow before

Can't we just enjoy the rain
cos it shows to us
all the hardship and tears
of bringing those
to a better place.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

i slept early not because i had
work tomorrow

i slept early because
i wouldn't stay awake 
waiting for your text

Monday, August 18, 2014

Hi, this is me
the same old me
still not reaching happiness
still struggling with relationship
still grasping out of life

i found one
but 
idk u

Friday, July 11, 2014

When i start writing
it was due
to the unpleasant feeling
built up inside of me

The trembling fingers
the soaking wet eyes
the shrugging shoulder

It will be long gone
by the time you close you heart
to someone

Monday, June 02, 2014

Maybe
i'm trying so hard

Maybe 
i'm giving in to much

what left of me
is nothing

and all i got
in return
.....

Friday, May 23, 2014

i don't know who you are anymore
i don't remember us at all

let's fight over some petty things
and let's win over the fight.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

i don't see you no more

you seem so far and 
me getting isolated here.

all i need is only you.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

This is who i am
Take it or leave it.

But do remember
i can change
for the sake of ours,
only if you're worth
for the changes.

Prove your worthy.

Monday, April 28, 2014

It was so damn complicated.

Why can i be like a normal girls
always do.

"Baby, i miss you. Please come here. I want to meet you"
*i'm mocking this sentence silently in my mind, ugh.

Do every men need to resolve every girl?
What if i can't be resolve.

Do me a favor
i don't even know what the problem is.
Can we pretend there wasn't any?

Though i act tough
i still got some soft spot
to a certain person

And thank you for letting it bleed out
occasionally this few days.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

I feel like i want
to be connected to you
but i can't.

I feel like i want
to be relied on to you
but i can't.

I feel like i want us
to be together.

Do you?

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

I was so damn tired
of all this bullshit
of my past.

And i hope everyone 
around me can start
to learn
to let it go.

Or else, i might just go 
somewhere.

Where no one know me
and no nothing
of my past.

Monday, April 14, 2014

Was it hurt?
Are you satisfied?
Is this what you want?
Was it any different than
what from the past?

i hope you stay sane 
till the very end
to know you
did it again

You rewind 
but you never redo
Your past.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

So damn tired, 
and it would be much appreciated
if you won't 
make it worse

The urge to learn 
about you is killing me
especially 

Who are you?
Who is she?
What happened in the past?
What happened now?

As fragile and delicate
I want to know it all

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Put on your smile
to overshadow your doubt and sadness
What is love
when you cannot be real.

Thursday, April 03, 2014

i want to know your secret,
but i don't want to be in 
despair, alone and sorrow
knowing about your secret


Monday, March 24, 2014

You got your doubt
Well delivered and well mislead 

Do you still think
it going to work?

Aches
Aches on my chest. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

I saw something that i shouldn't see.
From that, i learned something.

You can say it wasn't a good information.
I am actually didn't want to know that.
Not right now, and not this fast.

What should i do.
Should i just ask for some clarification.

I really like where we are right now.
I don't want to mess it up.
Or change any.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Now you cried for no good reason.
Serves you right.

Why would you let someone
to toy your feelings.

Why would you let them in.

Why would you let them
be close to you.


Thursday, March 13, 2014

I really hope 
everything going to work out
with you.

All i want is some honesty and trust.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Have i ever been blinded
by those wicked soul?

Have i ever been deceived
by those poor bastard?

Have i ever been fooled
by those sick crowd?  

What left of me is a remainder of you.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

I dream of you yesterday
it is not like i am missing you

I just want you to know
i won't let it happen again
i won't dream of you again


Wednesday, November 06, 2013

Have you not seen?
It's been raining since the day
you decided on not talking to me anymore.

And it was like the universe
is sharing the same pain 
that i felt cause by you.